Today is Monday, right? I have to keep looking at calendars and such to remind myself the week JUST started! I know my school days are not going to be normal ones. I know each day will be it's own mini-struggle, but, dear gods, what is going on with today?
It's not just the kids or work either, it's everything I need to get done this week that should have already been done. Like today, after work I drove through horrendous traffic to get to a print shop to drop off our proofs for Pocket Novels. Then drove home, put out the dog and went to do laundry at the Laundromat since I didn't get to do it on Sunday and currently have no work clothes.
I also walked the dog and tried to remember to eat dinner. I'm so exhausted it's not even funny. Yet, I still have plenty to do tonight before I can crawl into bed and fall into blissful sleep.
Tomorrow's no better. Actually, no day this week is really an easy one. I have to mow the grass, which is about a month overdue since I got hurt and couldn't mow it before. I have to find my way to post offices and banks before their five o'clock end of day despite the fact I don't leave work until around 4:30 and none of those facilities are near where I work.
I need to get to the gym, though an injury is currently benching me and has been for over a week. I will have pet care daily. The dog does not care how my day was, he only knows he's supposed to get a walk everyday it's not raining. The house is a wreck, or 'hot mess' as my teacher likes to say.
My to-do list is seriously longer than my available hours or patience. To top it off, I won't get to see Newanderthal for a month due to a bachelor party in another state. Don't get me wrong. I'm not begrudging him his time. He's very close to his cousin and I think he needs this guy camping time with his friends. It just sucks I got to see him for about three days and now have to wait a month before I get another three days with him (next month is the out of state wedding, so he needs to spend some home time back in Louisiana....once again, not begrudging him his time).
My writing? Yeah, that's nonexistent. My little voices have left my head or maybe they've died from neglect. I haven't a clue, I only know my what-if generator is turned off. Maybe I simply don't have the energy to fully charge it.
My biggest concern is money and how to get the Pocket Novel project off and running. I want it to do well because it's an awesome project. I want to do my part, only I worry that I'm going to ruin it somehow. I won't be a great salesperson and the stores won't want to carry it. I won't get word out and people won't buy them because they don't know about them. All kinds of things that keep me up at night.
I have personal/mental/emotional gripes too, but too tired to rehash what many of you have already read in numerous whining posts. This post is not whining, I just feel the need to get all of this out and there's not really anyone to talk to about it right now. Hence, my personal blog gets the effluvium of my mind.
0 comments:
Post a Comment