Busy Pouting

Dear God, I am a whiny thing! Yesterday was my 'rest' day, as in, no running. I read that you have to have rest days to let your muscles, and body in general, catch up to the good things you're doing to it. 

Let me tell you about my rest day: I DID NOTHING! I slept in all morning, got no writing done and basically felt horrible. The only thing I did at all yesterday was a tutoring session, walk Rocco and the dishes. Not joking, that is ALL I did in an entire day. 

No, this isn't the point of a rest day. You're supposed to stay active. I had planned lots of writing and weights. Did none of it b/c I whimpered and whined. I just couldn't work with my own self at all. 

So when today came, I was still in less than a good mood. My alarm went off and I didn't want to get up, so I didn't. I let myself sleep in until my whiny self couldn't think of a good reason to stay in bed. I was supposed to dress for a run, but I didn't want to go, so I didn't at first. I let my whiny self check email and play on FB. I sat for a bit with Netflix on and pouted.

THEN I put on my running clothes and went for a run. Of course, I whined during that too. I didn't want to run so much, I wanted to walk...so I let myself walk, once I got a good workout in. Actually, today I ran 1.66 miles with only .35 of those being walking. Best I've done so far. 

I'm still whining about writing, which should be going on now, but I may allow myself to whine about it until after tutoring today. Then I will sit down and get a decent amount of work done. 

Basically, I've been treating myself like I do the one student in my tutoring sessions who keeps giving me negative feedback. He doesn't want to be in tutoring. I thank him for being able to share his feelings with me openly and explain that sometimes we have to do things we don't want to. In those times, the best thing we can do is try to have fun. When he told me later he didn't want to be there and wanted to call his grandmother, once again I thanked him for sharing and told him he could call his grandmother as soon as tutoring was over and we went back to the office. 

Today, I'm being that student. I let myself complain and when I can, I give myself options. However, I'm only delaying my real goal by maybe an hour or so. I'm still going to do it, but I know if my mental state is fighting me, I won't get anything out of it. That's why I let my mental state pout like a child then when it feels it's had its way, I move on to what I had already planned. 

I'm happy about my training so far. I can see small progress and considering I still have nearly three full months before the race, I hope to continue seeing progress. As long as I can get that immature part of me to cooperate!